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Labels: Friendship, happy food.

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Labels: inner voices

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Shokudo - 30 Sep 08

Swenson's White Choc Blondie - 30 Sep 08

Labels: Dine, happy, happy food., my love :), Reflections

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Hard Rock Cafe, Singapore

Think its a good place for Rock Oldies lover...Half the time..they were playing really old rock songs..(which only one ive seen before is Blondie..coz of Cheeky) the rest? I have no idea at all. Isnt really a good place if you're looking for one where u can have a good conversation..coz u have to raise ur volume by one or two. But I guess they play modern rock too..like 'Never again' from Kelly Clarkson's previous album.

The interior, together with the Menu, was kinda Americanised..displayed of guitars all over the place and the significant rock stars' posters and items (like that big coat of...*hmm)

A place for birthday apparently...in merely 1 hr plus...ther's already like 7 birthday songs heard....But the way they do it is quite cool though...The fish&co alike way but with announcements across the 2 levels..bells...song and sometimes a live performance like singing by friends.. and probably w a much better complimentary sundae..

Haven met up with Goey for a couple of months. The same sentence is always heard when we meet up.. "I wonder when's the next time we're going to see each other again"...Nowadays, it seems to become a once every few months thing.. :( bad! But I guess that's what happen when we get so busy with life. Are we really?

Dinner for the night!

The 'Rock' Chop - A large center cut smoked Rib Pork Chop grilled and basted with a sweet Maple-mustard glaze. Served with White Cheddar smashed potatoes,fresh vegetable and a fresh Granny Smith Apple-Mango chutney.

I ordered the 'Rock' Chop thinking that it could probably be one of their specialities. Taking a mouthful from the smashed potatoes.. (now, it's really smashed here,not mashed) and noticed the different from the normal ones with the gravy on it. Nope, it didnt had any gravy on it...was just lightly sweetened. At first I thought I tasted milk in it.

Like the sweetened top, by the Apple-Mango Chutney, on the Rib Pork...gave it a 2 layered taste to it. Although half the time I cant see them due to the darkness of the cafe.

Weird...but I love the burnt sides of the Rib Pork Chop...but the meat was alil alil hard for me. hees.

Twisted Mac, Chicken and Cheese..: A grilled chicken breast tops off twisted Cavatappi pasta tossed in a lightly spiced 3-cheese sauce, with garlic, roasted red peppers and Romano parsley bread crumbs. Served with a side of garlic toast.†

An order made by sister as she didnt wanna have too much meat. It was actually Macoroni with cheese with quite a nice cheese-sauce...coz it wasnt too thick that makes u feel sick after a few mouthful. Light yet creamy as the key. Tried alil of the garlic toast too...Besides adding abit of a variety to the dish... it is really not the prime of the dish..

Hickory Smoked Bar-B-Que Chicken..: Famous Southern-style half-chicken, rubbed, grilled and basted with our authentic Hickory Bar-B-Que sauce. Served with seasoned fries,ranch beans and fresh coleslaw.

Goey's BBq Chicken was really well-smoked. I guess...credits must be given to the Sauce used and skills of the chef. The fries was particularly differently and I really love it...too well seasoned! Another interesting thing is the Ranch beans...yummie..

Labels: Extravagance/Fine-Dining, Friendship

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A short post before I start studying for the day.

A long but fufilling day. A short project meeting in school, followed by working in sch; photoshop and data entry for a Prof. It amazed me how she identified those badly damaged coins. Voices of 'rotate somemore, further..further' have been ringing in my head for the whole of the afternoon.

Before dance, I met up with Cheeky for a relatively short dinner. *soup, soup* Come to think bout it...seems to be some time ago that I actually meet him after his work for dinner. And a chubby machine has detected a fatigue gloom.


Headed for Dance practice at 8+...before L.A. Hip Hop begins at 9pm. The way Instructor Ash teaches the class is very much different from Xiao Ke and Lavigne. With a pump of youth, energy and humour into the class..it seems to have lifted the spirits of all. As for the dance style itself, I admit it's tough. It's certainly less tiring than Reggae, since it's more of flow.. but doesnt seem very easy to grasp the flow/waves, isolation and most importantly accent. He mentioned the beauty of L.A. is the sudden retracts and/or pops JUST towards the end of a beat. That's very different what I've done over the past year...an energised-orientated pops and sexy-pretty steps. In L.A., it's more of a cool. Perhaps what they say is right..must be right that you need some time to adapt to the different style of a teacher...all the more, more time required to get used to the style in a particular genre of dance.

And I wonder...are dances really gender oriented? As in, are some dances suitable for certain genders of us only? I'm not bringing in Stereotypical views of any but it does show that guys really seem to look better in hip hop like L.A or maybe even lyrical. Conversely, gals definitely look more apt in Girls Hip Hop and Reggae. Then again, that's how those names came bout isnt it?

New Choreography song: Invisible by Jackie Boys
Newly Addicted-to Songs: Hush Hush by Pussycat Dolls (such an emo song, but so apt to hurt and strong souls in love, though a lil escapist) and Zombie by The Cranberries..
*hahas, I dunnoe how many times I've played them in 2days..more than 10times i think..for the least. -



From Everything I Wanted When You Came Along
But I'm Never Beaten From Broken Up Defeated
I Know Next To You Is Not Where I Belong

Labels: Dance, my love :), Uni-, Work

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This has to be, I say for sure the best moments the 2 of us have since Cheeky's return from the US..

Desk and Sofa

The lady has a choice for dinner. To ensure that Cheeky wasnt making all the decisions for the day, he let me choose among the list of dining places he has in mind for us. Here it goes, Triple-3, Pine Court, Chatterbox or in-room dining? I couldnt make up my mind for that. While I thought that in-room dining is gonna be reallly rare, I was afraid that Cheeky wanna have it somewhere else.. Like a tug-a-war, I finally finally chose in-room dining and was glad that it was parallel with Cheeky's initial decision! *grins, grins, grins.*

One of my favourite pics!! ;D

Another favourite pic!

Too much too much.

Dinner was really sumptuous with food from Chatterbox, Triple-3 and maybe some other restaurants from Meritus Mandarin. Especially love the Samosa...really nice! Caesar Salad w Smoked Salmon was nicely complemented too...Crisp, with the fresh salmon.

But dinner is absolute privacy, just the two of us with no restrictions in time. The simple chats over dinner. And the coincidental playing of "The Lakehouse" on HBO has complemented our dinner well with romantic love songs. *glad that we had in-room dinner.

US in the Mirror

We had ourselves lying on the bed, having heart-to-heart talks, or maybe more of a reminisce kinda chat. And even though both of us missed chilling at the Observatory Lounge, we were too full to stomach much of anything. And since I really dont feel like leaving the room... we forgo-ed chilling and enjoyed each other's company just in the room.. ;D

lovelove. chubchub loves *u!

I was kinda reluctant to sleep that night. Knowing that such isolation would soon be over the moment you sleep. Oh and to mention, while giving Cheeky his weekly massages, on the big bed, it really felt so much easier.... coz you dont get cramp and difficulties massaging one side of the body.

This stay with Cheeky made me realised how one couple can easily indulge in their very own best moments without the interference of the outside world and when u place their in the right environment.. I didnt realised such isolation until I walked out with Cheeky to 'stock-up'. Then had I realised Im already engulfed into the moments belonging to our the 2 of us. It's a very very new experience.

As to why One year or One month? It was with regards to the kind of honeymoon period the two of us are in despite being together for one year. My idiotic smiles for the little actions Cheeky did. To the extent that the kind of sweetness really felt novel, fresh and like those of the usual first few months of couples. I'm extremely, extremely glad that we haven't lose them. And actually, if i really think these through, Cheeky's trip to US had kinda gave the relationship a 'restart', like we have started on fresh grounds.

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now.

Labels: Anniversary, ecstatic, Extravagance/Fine-Dining, my love :), Reflections, Sweet

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Labels: enraged, Myself, Reflections

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Labels: Anniversary, ecstatic, Indelible memories, my love :), Surreal, Sweet

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Welcome by the brightly-lit building UCC and I was still in time. The second time that Im watching a Contemporary Dance. The previous was by AJC and this time...NUS's Synergy. In fact, I lacked the interest to look forward it in the beginning. But having watched the second, I think contemporary dances are nice to watch (but probably not my interest to dance that) coz it's artsy soothing and magical. It exhibits the graciousness of each dancers and when it intergrates with the music, props and especially lighting..I felt like i was watching some world arts.

The first office themed dance was great. Novel, it is.

Inspiration comes from these people. The relentless, "the show must go on" attitude. Having this dancer who injured her ligament but still went ahead to dance. Now.. that seriously worth a great deal of applause. And to hurt her ligament and still dance beautifully..it just makes people wonder in awe if she was putting up a show in her limpings. But apparently, it was a real injury as confirmed by Char.. And it's not only me. After the dance..audiences were asking if the injury was real or an act. It was too good to be real.

Kinda glad that I went for this performance and shared my friend's fruit in this hardwork!

Char and koon

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ANOVA is insanely confusing.

we doubt simplicity when we both dont mind simplicity.
- When I ran out of words, you said it for me

10:28 PM

Labels: Dance, Myself, Reflections

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Yupps. So im gonna face it. Be it psychologically, physically or financially.



Don't leave me in all this pain.
Don't leave me out in the rain.

Labels: Emo.., inner voices

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The same yummy Fried Dumpling and Chicken Rice... which has alot alot alot of meat..

This missing man

Oh, and this man has been missing from my cameras for a few months.. The first pics we had since his return... Cheeky being cheeeky...trying to mimic the koon's sleeping look. hahas.

Best Shot of the Day

And 27 & 28 Aug 08 marks one year to the day of our first date! It's probably the only relationship which I actually remember when is the first date..

my all

11:29 PM

Labels: Extravagance/Fine-Dining, happy, my love :)

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List of Places..

Aww. I dream of going to the Santorini Island in Greece since I was in like J1... kinda exotic yet soothing and seems like a really good get-away. And most importantly...feels like a romantic lil place..

Labels: Dreams

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Yupps. I'm idling my time away now; taking a little break from this long day.

I began to wonder about the history of 7 deadly sins - Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Sloth, Wrath, Envy, Pride. So I started reading. And I happened to come across the existence of the idea of 7 heavenly virtues which somewhat complements those sins. Via self evaluation and online tests, such double affirmation tells myself that I was right. So right. My greatest deadly sin..it's PRIDE otherwise known as vanity as well. Here of course, I thought bout the extent of each sins in me afterall everyone has a little of everything. Dont tell me you dont.

Much to wonder about the 7 heavenly virtues, some sources provided 8 of them. But basically it's prudence, justice, hope, love, faith, courage, temperance..all rein to the moral wings.

Yet, if you think bout it..too much of the virtues can actually lead to sins as well..dont they? All things come in moderation. All good things turn bad when there's too much..

oh no. i'm so tired and in pain to type a proper entry.. =x stop here first.. :(


i'll seize the day if you take away

Labels: Reflections

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I was listening to Class95 when this song regarding protection was played...didnt really caught the title of the song though as I was lost in my own flashbacks of fond memories.

A simple act on the way to the club. That was the first time. A subtle gentlemaniness displayed by a mere displacement of myself from the outer part of the road, supposedly dangerous to a clumsy one, to the inside where there's double safety - the absence of moving cars and the presence of a 'protector'. And when this act left me with silly and discrete smiles for the night and for the subsequent days when I recalled, I still cant help smiling and feel the sweetness for an act which probably no one pays attention to now.



~Good Nights :D


I pray.
I stay.

Labels: my love :), Sweet, Time Machine

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When I Grow Up by Pussycat Dolls

The new dance song today after Lavigne admitted that Lip Gloss was rather hiphop rather than Reggae. And this choreography is more fun and sexy according to what she said. Wonderful song. It's constantly playing in my mind now.

I was looking at the lyrics of the song or the title of the song even. It made me wonder how vulnerable one may get as we grow up. Ironic to the adage of 'one should get stronger as we grow'. We had so many dreams for life, so much hopes for it when we were younger. I haven experienced it, perhaps like what he said..i'm one of those lucky kids around. Jaded and fearful; uncertainties. The struck of all these. Growing up is not always a good thing..

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" You know, when I laid down there...lost for words, yet again. I really wished those hugs could make you feel better. My laughters can be a bit more contagious even if its just for a while. I meant what I said.. to stay by you. To really disrregard the past way of lifestyle; we all adapt isnt it? And I think I or we know whats behind 'The Great Pretender"...and we both didnt say anything until certain times..But I know what it means with the simple words too... 'a big boy'. The ways to handle one is to believe this one knows what he's doing and will confide when he needs to.."

I'm not really considered a very big girl yet..to be totally sensible and even be able to understand the psychology of grown-ups. This has to be examined from a few aspects of psy - developmental, cognitive and perhaps even social psy.. But even at a young age of 19, I understand the need to be able to left alone to solve and think through things. Of course, apparently, this does not apply to everyone of us. Just like how I hate it when I'm down, people began to shower extra care and concern, it's like becoming a little gal again overnight. Just feels so weird, so wrong. It would feel like sympathetic concern or in worst cases, for-show concern.

So essentially, i believe..care and concern are important but not overly excessive to feel abit more real, and more sincere. I think, i think and i think (of coz from my point of view, and most likely applies to myself).. be there silently, like as usual..and only speak when need to. Yet, it's a dilemma of how to strike a balance in giving when you consider the possible factors.. the effects of it when you give more or give less. But I think this man here works pretty much the same way as I do in this area; perhaps w a slight difference.

~playing 'Miss you in a Heartbeat' by Def Leppard.

crown of scars

11:02PM

Labels: Dance, Media, my love :), Reflections

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Yupps. Guess it's time to mention something about school! So far, school has been fantastic! I guess when you have the drive to do something, everything becomes easier. It seems like 80-90% of my mind is wanna-study-hard.

Weird it may be, before the start of school..I have been looking forward for school to start! To be mugging once again. Somehow it feels really good doing some of these things.

Now, these days... as I was telling Cheeky and Charmaine..I dont really mind staying in school longer and later. Somehow it feels good as well. I just don't know why all the things I've dreaded since JC (to stay away from school) is reversing its way round. I'm taking the extra effort to complete the readings and revise the lectures! :D



loving MINI CORNETTO!
loving VITAGEN COLLAGEN!
loving colourful babyy biscuits!

Labels: Uni-

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Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything.

12:32 AM

Labels: my love :)

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Part I: You have a choice.

Sis and I took Mum to choose her own cake and buy some of her favourite food. That's first, i think. To let her choose her own cake rather than we making the choice for her. And perhaps, well hopefully, when one is left with a right to choose, it is another form of joy.

Unlike what I've expected (that a fruity cake would be chosen), Mum initially wanted a chocolate cake but decided on a coffee cake at last.


Part II: Reminiscing Childhood.

The biker Dad took Mum to Old Kallang Airport to have her favourite Satay Noodles which she used to have since she was young.. And the 'kids'? We stayed at home, hees. Coz it was inconvenient and we didn't wanna go too. Maybe that would give them a little privacy too.. hahas.


Part III: Before the usual.

We cutted the cake after sis's bf arrived, at a late 10pm. And it's always during the such moments...Mum will grin widely as if showing a slight shyness.



Honesty is a wonderful wonderful thing :D

Labels: Family

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Labels: ecstatic, Indelible memories, my love :)

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The long wait and countdowns are over!! :D

Cheeky (hmphs) 'surprising' return...

:DD

In a short while!

1:00 AM

Labels: my love :)

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I was planning the full timetable for school, that is including tutorial slots in it. And I just couldnt believe my eyes when I saw the tutorial slots (only Wed slots) for "Samurai, Geisha, Yakuza as Self or Other" clashing with "Food & Health" lecture. I checked, double-checked and checked again. Yupps. They clashed.

So now that would mean...I will probably have 4days week on alternatate weeks and going to school JUST to attend a 2 hour tutorial on a Thurs.. (Unless I drop that module. But I have real limited choices now)

On a positive note, that might have mean a less slack semester or rather push me to be less slack. Perhaps really a push for me to really study hard and serious this semester. Year 2 is beginning in 2 days time. And I gotto study hard for my own goal! I guess it's all the rest I have during this holiday that makes me feel I'm like totally ready for school. I can't wait to read Social Psy! It's one of my favourite! :DDD

Labels: Myself, Uni-

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yea..doing collage(s).......
suddenly feel excited and also in dilemma.... There's always something to draw my attention away...



I tried to climb your steps.
I tried to chase you down.
I tried to tame this mind.

Labels: Myself

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I'm asking myself this question now: How much love do I have for it?
It's gonna be another heavy burden along the months. Thinking if i can manage this additional burden coz once I start...I don't really wanna stop so soon..

I really love it...but how much is this love worth? How far does it qualify for my investments - time, effort and money...

Arghs. I hate it when financial tightness has to stop me from doing what I want. Then again, who will like that?



dilemma..

Labels: Dance

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You make it easier to be me

6:34 PM

Labels: Media, Reflections

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3 Aug 08

And just an hour ago, I completed a spring cleaning in my room..From tables, DVD home theatre area, Drawers, cabinets, Floor, Bed..I gave them a good clearance, wipes, vacuums and arrangement! It's a sign that I'm getting ready for school once again! From young, I have this weird habit..that is to clean up my room before I set off for mugging for exams and before school starts. I think a clean environment really makes me feel ready, fresh and weirdly..happier!

Some people commented that I get happy over small things. But I don't know..that's me. Being happy ain't that hard right? I always believe that a smiling face can brighten up another's face. Happiness is somewhat contagious or should I say emotions are contagious. You'll feel equally dull if your loved ones are not happy.

The Almost-Perfect Workspace, and all the other display on my desk.. ;p

And lastly...kinda really like this collage I created last week. Narcissistic..yes. But just cant help liking it. :D

This fire fighting to survive.

Labels: Extravagance/Fine-Dining, happy, Myself, Retail Therapy

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Bloodshot eyes are what i'm having right now. I havent got enough sleep yet; 4hours since the sleepless chalet. Beng and Ze were trying to keep me awake...



Pammie and I met up at HGM to get the stuff needed for the pot-luck before we make our way to Pasir Ris where we met Ze.. I'm so glad that we went against his idea to walk there...yes..everywhere is walkable to him but that was simply too far! And under the burning hot sun, We said ''no!"
A very very nice sky with well-blended colours. I always love dusk...the colours in the skies always brighten up my mood and it's just something so natural....the colours are always different..never the same everyday. Of coz I love nights too...thats another feel as a whole. The peace, the breeze, the darkness.

Labels: Uni-

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She could say more than I ever could, know ways to put things in light.
While what I've said were all ordinary and plain. I call it tasteless even to the tongue buds. Whose words make a significant impact complemented with the person's importance and status to one...the smallness made me felt like doing nothing. Nothing at all. To turn myself away so far. Run away. It could be only myself, only myself that took note of such stuff. But things dont go that way..when you dont realise, it doesnt mean that it didnt exist or haven't exist.

I've lost so much in time and perhaps not just time im losing out. Time for things around me, between each shuffling shoulders..it makes a difference. And if it has to be compensated by something else...I say and I think it's background. Background of one. And i cant even match up to that. Each time I think of the mocking sentences, it puts me in dull light. Mocking sentences do not carry the same weight when different people said it. And well, it could be imagination or wild thoughts you call it. But it's not always like this for Some things you know for sure.

I don't know if i should be happier or sadder..it's always a complex feeling. But thank god optimism has taught me to drain the unhappy, remember the happiness and think in the most positive way..




Strange. Our lifes coincide with the seasons of today.

Labels: Emo.., inner voices

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He was helpless.

The magic in his life has shattered in the most disarraying way like it puzzled me now. Who would have thought that there could be tragic in magic too?

To (have to)be fearless of the feared. To be wishful only in his own fantasies, for the slightest mercy. He pleaded in ways that nobody does. He lived with the only hopes to survive, for a better day ahead. A day with a meal is deemed as a good day to him. He had it in all ways - the corners, the mirrors, the knocks, the hits, the screams and the chores. A day with his mum dead silent on the couch is a relief to him. What happened to the angelic nature of hers? She wasn't who she used to be. It was scary; to be accepting and having to defend an angel transforming into a devil.

He is a victim yet I noted and warned that he is a kin too.


My sympathy went all way out as the images through the words flashed.
From holding hands to tears.
From blue and orange streaks across the skies to the dullest grey that one could have.
From a good boy to a 'bad boy'.


Should I wish that he had nothing to start with or to live in extreme reminsce of the past in the present? Which would be more cruel? Cruelity exerts itself in two ways. To take the best of what you ever have away or to let you never have.




The broken clock is a comfort

Labels: Books, Emo.., inner voices

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"Stead" - One of the words that I caught from the couple who was gossiping 'bout their friends behind me. It reminds me how I thought this word was. To be describing two persons being in love and in an official relationship. No matter how I look at it...it never seems very apt.



Without looking at them, a stereotypical image floated across my mind. Perhaps one of those still in secondary school...perhaps the "hooligans" in school.



With that scenario aside, the importance of language spoken especially has been reiterated. I gladly admit that how one's culture, environment, and exposure have groomed or rather educated one to be relatively proficient in one language. With a combination of these factors, one can almost readily make a safe guess on the social status of a person. Even though we always say not to judge a book by its cover..but personally I think it's a safe gauge of the most basic status and background of one.



Like how 'Chinky-ness' has been coined upon me at the moment of utterance, different impressions are formed when one speak. Especially so, I'm talking about English. It dawned upon me that no matter how much effort u put into your most outer appearance...the 'beautiful moments' would be more than spoilt the moment you speak.



In other cases, good language can have you get away more so than someone who uses a crude one. ...given the same issue. With a different lanaguage used, the impression people have on you can (almost) flip 360180degrees around.



And we all know..good language allows one to progress MORE easily.



Enough being said..since im not in a fantastic position to talk bout language..but it jolly well serves a good reminder to me to constantly put in effort to rectify the wrongs of my language and to learn, learn and learn. I wouldn't blame anyone when they correct me..sometimes I thank them for it....despite the fact that yes..it is quite awkward at times....







Fate loves to make fun of people.

Labels: inner voices, Reflections

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Labels: Dine, Family

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Like a form of art, Missing Someone and/or something is as abstract. For the past few weeks or probably month, I gave thought to this piece of mental art. A artpiece that is installed in oneself towards the very specific.

To put it in a simpler form, it's made up of emotions. Purely emotions of urge, yearn, and perharps attached with a tinge of sadness and hopes in it. Like an incoherent blend of the positive and negative emotions. But pondering over it made me take the stand of it being more than being a mixture of complex emotions. Precisely.. it's a mixture of emotions, all the more made it an abstract art to be explained. And an art because there's no fixed ways of how you feel, no fixed ways of expressing, no fixed way of doing it, no fixed mixture of emotions.. and nothing is very fixed.

A very simple question has been questioning myself for these time. "So why then do we miss only some people and not everyone that we came across or rather..why is the extent of missing someone different?" To date, I have no better answer other than because you feel more for one than the other. But how convincing is this? I often wonder if missing someone is solely a psychologicial hypnotisation; you miss someone because the inner self has been voicing the emotional attachment you have to one and through this constant effort..it ripples a missing effect.

Or could it be the possessing of one-thing and the sudden loss of it have brought about poor adaptation and hence missing?

I asked myself alot of simple sounding questions but hard-to-answer questions. Questions which yield open-ended answer; with no faithfully right answers.

Missing..expressed in different forms. We all have the freedom to expressing this art. And perharps like Art..each time you look at it...you understand it better or even in another perspective. Missing comes in some kind of a cycle too. When you think about it at different time...it peaks at different time and subsides with understanding and acceptance.

I dunnoe how else i can explain this piece of art...but i think it is. Its quite a weird thing i say.

It's made up of different colours.
It's made up of different shades.
It's made up of different images.
It's made up of different emotions.
It's made up of different..........................................

My eyes i'm screaming for a sight of you

10:59 PM

Labels: inner voices

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Night time has been inviting coughs and bitter sore throat for the past three nights. And since yesterday night... the cough is like getting worst, making me sound like a terminal illness patient.
Disrupting the peacefulness and beauty of the night with noisy hoarse deep coughs.

And just a moment ago..a sweet little gal poured a cup of warm water, holding it with her 2 kid-like size hands and placed it on my desk..thrown me a smile of hers and left my room. Such a sweet act. Soon after, she dropped two Vicks Lozenges by the side of my laptop.

And another gal came into the room with cough syrup in her hands... I rejected it just now. But now...with second thoughts...I think I better have it in a while....dont want another sleepless night..

And just the day before, Mum bought me a bottle of herbal tea the moment she knows that im unwell OVER THE PHONE. Yes..she asked me to drink herbal tea...but I thought she was asking me to buy it myself..

:D Thank you Sweet People!




This footloose fancy, free stuff overrated

Labels: Family, Sweet

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Until now, I'm having the aches on my arms and legs from yesterday's activties. I have no idea whether it's from the gym or from the hours of dancing.

Just before I stepped out of the house, I received Jerica's msg asking me to be in club-suitable way just in case we have to succumb to temptations. Indeed, even before we left the house, I guessed..we would really go. Sometimes it's really hard to resist SUCH temptations especially during holidays AND free-time.

Shopping was great. A wonderful achievement for myself coz I bought nothing. An absolute nothing. But still, we went around the boutiques enjoying the wow-ness by the branded :( ..And I think the both of us agreed, just like any other things, once you're up the ladder...you'll be very reluctant to go down again.

Oh yes...to ensure that we can get in...we have already reached there by 930pm. And the queue was already so long..snaking past the valvet car park. We thought we wouldnt have a chance to get in. And now I know why reaching at 11+ is a almost-sure-no-chance to get in. Oh the night's music got quite sucky at times...Jerica and I stoned for a while when they played trance and techno. Oh my goodness~

And everytime during club... I'm so entertained by people's pick-up. I have to admit that they are damn irritating coz they make you have to change your dance spots constantly. But the way they pick-up...comes in all sorta ways besides the usual bored ones. Like this guy that told me," No, I dont pick-up in club"..so i replied "and what are you doing now?" It's so bad that i turned violent for the night..elbowing guys away. I thought it was kinda rude, but since words dont work..
And ther's other funny stuff today...would be endless to summarise em here.. *hahas.

Good Girl Still A Good Girl!
you should be proud of me :)

6:48 PM

Labels: Club, Friendship

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Labels: my love :)

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I want a kiss ;p

Labels: Anniversary, my love :)

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That's a kind word in this case, and I have been trying to be kind.

With regards to one's personality, any sensible person would know that there is a need to understand deeper via interactions before sentencing him or her to a certain category.

To date, I have been trying to look at things in the positive light. The key is to ACT that im ignornant; to act dumb. Some people really leave me damn confused with the thoughts of which is the dominating side or rather the real personality..

And I havent been able to deal with certain situations. Somehow even if I tried to pretend I could..it still leaves a little of a shadow behind before my bed-time that day. Perharps it's the simplest emotion thats acting itself.. "Disgusted"

But it was a blessing for cheeky to be there for me, even though it's for a very short while, on very virtual visual, textual form...it was comforting enough. Amazing yea? :)


miss you..

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Labels: inner voices, my love :)

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Labels: Friendship, happy, Uni-

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I have planned to take Mum out since long ago when I was still working...Perharps...one and a half month ago. Coz I know, on her own..she cant bear to spend.



As planned, we headed to Orchard for some shopping and fine dining(in her terms).... Perharps the scrimping nature just strives in her that even a pair of shoe for 29.90 is considered expensive to her, a top for 29.90 is considered expensive to her.... It seems that my effort to bring her out to shop is a little failure, especially so whenever I see her putting the items back after looking at the price tag. But well, at least I got her a Espirit top, really hope Mummy likes it.


I took her to Crystal Jade La Mian Xiao Long Bao coz I thought the food there was nice and suitable for her Oriental tastebuds..So glad that she likes the food...*mummy is a lil glutton*..hees.

And over brunch (or, thats our dinner as well)..She poured out some things on her mind.. I was a listener..listening patiently to her stories which are mainly of work and elder sis... One thing for sure...ther's never a day she stopped complaining about sis. That's why sometimes I'm so pissed with her for making Mum so exasperated..

I WANT THEM!

And while shopping, I spotted these 2 pairs of heels that I UTTERLY love by Guess Marciano. UNFORTUNATELY, the price tag clearly stated an extremely high price with the first pair at SGD 419 and second pair at SGD 179. *sighs. I'm getting into the fetish of heels and shoes again. So hope that these nice shoes will cost a lil cheaper..

One of the Best Buys

Apparently without self-discipline, I bought myself yet ANOTHER sneakers for dance.. eeks. Koon is getting out of control..

Genuine Leather

And yes, I cant keep my mind off this vest. For the comfort and design...I bought it even though it's quite expensive...BUt i really love it!

On a sidenote, I realised that both Mum and I are advocates of FREEDOM when it comes to relationship. It's something that I don't know until today. She recalled the dating story with Dad where she or they dont even ask each other where they are going, which means NO reporting. And surprisingly, she commented that yin is not giving Junwen enough freedom. I'm real surprised by that.. Perharps it's inheritance from her that I'm crazy bout freedom.

Then again, with too much of such self freedom..my money is flowing at the fastest rate possible..


And well, my plan of not letting her pay a single cent today was to let her enjoy herself to the fullest.. Hopefully it did help her de-stress..even though I ended up shopping much much more for myself..

I think I really have to hide at home

Labels: Family, Retail Therapy

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Labels: inner voices, my love :)

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Beerlao

And the gift from Buddy at the way from laos.. is a Beerlao t-shirt..asking me to go and sell beer in that shirt. HMPHS. Nevertheless..thanks for the souvenir..

And yes! Self-obsession again. Forever top in my list of hobbies especially especially so when im free!

Okae, I better get started.

Ther's no meaning to the meaningful

4:01 PM

Labels: Friendship

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Rainie, Xiao Ke, koon

all so amazing..

6:40 PM

Labels: Amazed, Dance

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Camp has ended a few days ago! While the few of us struggled real hard to continue the legacy of group 2 (I believe we did our best), we have to admit that not having enough freshies is surely gonna be a disaster say next year.

Over the days, conflicts happened. Some of us cried over the conflict and I cried during fright night, for a while. Some of us took the quiet role while some voiced out. But in the end, we were still considered a happy group 2, winning the BEST OG for the year. But well, it's not vela but the merger group Vion.

This entry has given me a big headache..dunnoe what to say for the past 5 days....some photos..

:: Mysterious Journey ::

A pic with KC and AKC on Day Two

The hamburger game and human pictionary...they were all amazing. And it's even more amazing for Kangwen to guess almost all correctly. Is it right to say that RJ students have some kinda sixth sense?


:: Fright Night ::

Alright, this year's fright night...I have to be a ghost..asking the freshies to retrieve my eyeball from the urn for me. Of coz funny things happened...like they passed me the urn etc.

To say this again, im not a welfare ghost..it's just simply dangerous.

Fortunately face paints are not as bad as I tot... and being a ghost is real hard. I rather be a freshie being scared...it's so much easier..

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Well. After a day or rather all recent weeks of problems, im done with packing now.


Really hope things will be fine tomorrow.





And now I know how hard it is being a councilor, in ALL aspects.

This is for me, my station on fright night. I have to be a ghost...in a damn..........................scary and stuffy room at the rooftop.


More bout the camp when im less tired since I have to bring lappie to camp...imagine the amount of things to carry..insane.

god bless us.

you're so far away.

1:39 AM

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Awaking in a state of ultimate trance and dark streets. With blurry eyes, I looked around frantically trying to figure out where I am. Just before the door of the bus closes, I dashed down. Phew, once the door close and i'm over all the stops I could alight at. Indeed, i'm feeling so tired from this long day. w paint-stained pants and watch (luckily im not wearing my guess watch), I really hope everything that has been done can be put to good use. Fed the mosquitos and climb the hills in NUS..

Our final banner..

Finally the banner is done. It took us about 2 hours to complete this task. After which, we headed to the Fright Night journey, walking almost the whole of NUS lugging my laptop around with me around too....tiring. hahas. It reminds me of fright night last year..

And yes. I'm feeling exactly the same way as QH. It's always the 3 of us..Jeff,qh and me. And who else? So what if camp fails? Well.....we will know soon. If it fails, all of us will withdraw. Things aint flowing the way they should. On 3 sides, councilors, freshies and the main comm all have problems and even if it's not really frustrating, it just felt different. A totally off morale and mood.

Yes. We gave up.

Originality

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And I just said I have people who dote on me alot. Look at what I have! This very very very very very very very very sweet friend (endless of 'very) sent me all these through msn! This person drew it all with the mouse! SO sweet. And well, I cant disclose 'this person's identity. A promise between me and hmphs, this person..

This person drew anything i requested...even the sound-so-impossible yoghurt.
And I consolidated them on photoshop...

Labels: Friendship, Sweet

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Just recently, i was made to realised that how my peers especially my sistas like goey and xiang ling and buddy dote on me. They let me do things in ways I want..somehow let me make the decisions and play along with me during my cam-whoring sessions even though they are kinda reluctant.



They are understanding towards me. They dont complain about me putting my love above them sometimes. They dont even really grumble about it even though sometimes they tease me.



They are there to give me a listening ear and to advise me... etc.



Sometimes i really feel like a lil gal with the way they treat me. But I dont really think it's coz im really younger than them by months...



Goey for accompanying things i wanna do. Goey for not minding my excessive cam-whoring habit. Goey brushing off my worries and saddness with hints of relax and jokes.



Xiang for continously asking me to take care of myself, my back...must eat..etc. (though i thought it was abit ironic w the fact that she herself doesnt)



Buddy for sending his regards fr Vietnam,specially reporting his safety and thinking hard on what souvenir to get...



hahas.....i think im v blessed.

And these are only good friends...besides them...i still am blessed with so many other people..my parents...my family, my cheeky.



The 'irritating' parents who always buy me food even though i said no. Wake me up just to EAT. The nagggings and scolding that are actually care and concern.



The cheeky who hides his concern in hmph...forever cool-ness. My privatised gentle side. :) All the pampers im showered with. To call me all the way from US and to web-cam despite the fact that he's so tired at....2am...and last week..all the way till 4am. It all made me feel so baby-ied.



Everything to remind myself I'm ordinary enough to have these luck.







So willing, feeling and watching it growing

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"You don't Mess with the Zohan" is a hilarious movie that transit most of its humour from sexual-related stuff. But all in all, i agree with goey that it's pretty dumb. I would say that the plot is so-so. Nevetheless, it's a good entertaining movie that keeps the giggles rolling on..


After the movie, we went luxury shopping. I'm feeling so breathless from looking at Kate Spade, Fendi and Chanel. Each of them is so nicely designed with an affordable but expensive price tag. Sometimes I really wonder if it's the design that really makes the heart yearn and want or simply coz of the brand.. 4000+ for a chanel handbag and 900+ for the kate spade bag I saw and my card holder..thats 320SGD..


Oh well...but I thought of mum's financial situation or probably the family's one. I think I should wait a few more years. Afterall, I should not live the princessy life so soon.


A million thanks for Goey to accompany me to ArtFriend. :) And this lady offered me great ideas....

Being so jaded in what town has to offer us and the fact that crowd is everywhere on a Saturday plus our ever endless exploratory mind...we decided to drop by Upper Thomson Road a few days ago.


Contrary to the central, Upper Thomson Road is a quieter district and had its shops lining along the main road, with a slower pace of life.

Still on the craze for soup, we went around looking at Vietnamese Food and HongKong Food as we cant find Auntie Kim which serves Korean Food.. With the very familiar Hongkong cafe menu, we forsaked familiarity and decided to try Vietnam food which both of us are not familiar with.

Chefs through the glass

It almost had the same open kitchen as the one in Bangkok just that this is seeing it through the glass.

We had the Set meals which was as cheap as 8.90 bucks even though we wanted to have a light dinner... Quite a good deal with the Pho Chin, drinks and dessert of the day..except for the fact that the soup is a lil salty. I had Pho Chin Brisket while goey had Pho Chin Chicken...with different soup base. The plate of lime, veg and beansprouts they served were seriously raw. None of us like it. hahas. Drinking all the soup and drink is filling enough that I cant finish the Pho..


Whereas for the dessert...it's something like agar agar with corn in it...it's like those you found in catering wrapped in the pandan leafs...A very light dessert, definitely doesnt feel sinful.

My !!!

And it's pretty obvious that the waiteresses and chefs and boss lady there are all Vietnamese. And somehow or rather, this place reminds us of Bangkok, Croy Tai in Platinum Mall which we went on the 3rd Day. With a very similar setting.

She's so ROUND...

The lady boss is very friendly,probably coz it's her own business. With her offer to take a pic for us...i wouldnt reject it.. ;p

So what's inside?

I think I really did myself a disfavour when I asked the waiter what's inside and can we go in?...With his reply of...'er..it's the kitchen'... But well, I thought it could be something like Eski Bar with the cold room. Nvm, slap myself. hahas.

And what made me asked that question was because when the door opens, I saw that it was REALLY crowded inside...

After some time,our observations tell us that it's a family business with all the family members helping out inside. Occasionally you see a old dad in slippers and in non-waiter uniform coming out and clean the tables.

Oh and for the ambience...it's a cosy little place with a very cute concept of hahas, CHEEKY. The patrons were mainly the rich peeps from the Thomson district private houses for most of the peeps there were kinda in home-clothes..I reckon so..unless u tell me that they have bad fashion sense. Mostly failed shots. HAHAs

This Malay waiter was very funny. As Goey rejected his offer of taking pics for us once and I still asked him to take for us...he was like 'still say you dont want'

And btw, ther's a cute waiter there. hahas. For gals who like to ogle at cute guys.....Ther's one there. ;p I just happened to see it, hmphs..not ogling

Under the sign missing YOU.

And just before taking this pic...that Malay waiter was disturbing us at the door....making me having to shoo him away..hahahas.

hahas, both of us are sooo bestowed with radiance! We are both blooming..see the reflection on our cheeks? Very nice..I like that.. yayys!

Seriously speaking, I feel so doted with her/them...I shall elaborate on this some other time..

true friends leave footprints in your heart.

9:04 PM

Labels: Dine, Friendship, happy food.

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Health Boost

To start this meeting up off, we headed for dinner at Cedele as early as 6.20pm. The advantage of an early dinner is no-crowds and a better ambience. Dining at a noisy place is like a foodcourt or hawker..

Apparently, it is in the healthy category compared to its counterparts.. when olive oil are used..and oops i cant remember what other healthy facts are there..
Spicy Beef Stew for xl while I had the chicken stew and sadly i think most of their soup are non-cream. We had free flow of bread to go the soup and it's all self-service. Xl and I had our fair experience of cutting the loaf of healthy-bread..

And it's my first time to see bread going together with Olive oil...but it doesnt really appeal to me though...

Over dinner, we chatted about things that we had missed out on. Despite the fact that we chat everyday...some things are still better said face-to-face. And updating on daily/today affairs kind of thing.

And CHan XL!....I have to say this a million times...you're seriously v skinny now. Hahas..i feel kinda weird standing next to you. Like a giant and a dwarf..
I think you should gain some weight for a more radiant and healthy look. hahas

All, well...when i'm off the try-to-stay-health regime...then we should probably try the cakes and main courses. ....

goodnites folks.
yayys! I can finally sleep abit later after two weeks before I meet !!! again tomorrow! :)

sacred and sweet.

1:46 AM

Labels: Dine, Friendship

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.I don't know if i'm too tired nowadays...I'm seem to be dozing off at work... Am I too bored or simply tired? I can't keep my eyelids open as easily. Well, perharps the combination of the 2 reasons make it...very tired.




And I must say...swimming on Thursday is definitely a bad choice.........Having to change lane every half a lap....having to give way..bumping onto each other.. I hate that.





Oh and my random mind takes me somewhere now...both me and goey LOve Daisy of Marc Jacobs! Smells really sweet. And Ive recently eyed on some Fendi and Agnes B. Well, but just see...don't think i'll possess any of them. Not yet the time of my life.






-i love talking to you. Made me feel that i have been casted with some magic and spells again. I think ur magic scroll certainly works for me :) Across the oceans yet still feel close. And most importantly i realised it is never having to worry about any forms of damage to the closeness.

RANDOM.....

yea. very random. Even to the extent of ending with injuries...

feel so baby-ied... hees.

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Indeed, MUSHROOMS.

Apparently the places serves steamboat and ala-carte as well. I had the Sweet and Sour Monkey Head Mushroom and yes...it's all MUshrooms...rather than what I thought...(Sweet & Sour Pork).. It was nice but given that there are so many mushrooms, in the soup as well...can get quite sick of it.

Sis's Pork Ribs of course cant be made of mushrooms. hahas. So instead of the VEG salad that I have, hers was a mushroom-based, which tasted pretty nice...tasted kinda japanese. And the Soft-shell crab look alike dish with wasabe mayo was ALSO mushrooms.

Indeed, MUSHROOM POT.
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14 June 08-Saturday, CAC Dry-Run

After days and days of considering whether to go for the dry-run or not, I dragged myself out of the bed at my usual time that I woke up for work only to see a gloomy sky. I could have have a wonderful sleep at home.

Disappointment beckons the moment Jeff, Qiuhan and I reached Palawan Beach. Instead of a large group of people whom we expect to see, we saw only a small group of about 10 people. Sad to say, we were the only 3 councilors out of the five in total. It certainly brings about the thought of ' I shouldnt have come :( '

While many of the games seem familiar to last-year's one..SOME of the games are still quite fun.

And I almost didnt remember the wonderful memories up in that little hut months ago until I saw that again. Miss it, despite the sucky humid weather..

Fluffy CLOuds

Dry-Run in action

koon's smiley face :)


After the dry-run, the few of us began to buy with our own beach volleyball w an ultra light ball...I wonder is it coz of that that I'm having the aches on the hand. If not, what else?

Lunch

Guys just keep getting hungry yea? Jeff just had breakfast at around 10am yet at 1pm...he's feeling the hunger. While Jeff and I were rushing for some other places after that, we gotto have a semi-quick lunch. Jeff's hot and spicy noodles, my sweet corn soup and qiuhan's fried rice.

Meeting with '!!!'

We began our shopping all the way from Far East Plaza, to Tangs, to Wisma, Taka. All of us had something to buy in mind! I wanna get jogging shoes, bags, clothes, dance shoes, flats and many more! While the less greedy goey wanna get a pair of high heels...and sis wanna get the korean-style clothes.

Unlike the past when I have frequent trainings..nowadays I cant shop for ONE WHOLE day...partly due to my back too. I cant walk too long as I cant stand properly after walking too long a time. BADBADBAD.

CHORE

Dinner on a Saturday night is an insane chore. Imagine long queues everywhere and in the end, we spent like 2hours for dinner including finding and queuing. From our carve of soupy stuff, we had limited choice and so we gave in to Fish & Co, which is of TOTAL opposite..

LOVE this '!!!'.hahas

And this is the winner of the night, in my view. They had to act more than once before i took it sucessfully coz I just couldnt stop laughing....

And I got myself a bag and a Yellow sandals..wow! Goey got her heels which im so in love with too....but no, too many heels recently. hahas.REfrain!

While sis, got herself a green scarf...and a ultimate comfortable white flats.

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17 June 08- Much of a Rest day

Despite being my only rest day for the week..or rather my sleep-in day..I have to wake up early to see the Doc for my back since he closes at 1pm.

The rubs and the crackings were bad. It's was so painful that I started yelling..as he rubbed from the lower back to the butt and the sides of the hips..(which was the worst!).. And then he pulled my legs up and cracked it and said...the bone kinda went off the position...arghs.

After which he used the cup-like thing to suck onto the back and it HURTS like HELL when he moved it across the hips and butts...terrible pain. imagine...when I dont usually yell bout pains..

And now... I'm left with circles of blue blacks on my back and butt...still hurts though..but i think its the blue-black pain, well hopefully.

I'm advised to swim more, at least twice a week..(once is fine..twice may be a lil hard)so that the back can be stronger and to balance the position of the bones. No Cold drinks. Better not to jog (nono, dont think i can really do that) and i'm on some weird medication now..stretch more...

Thank you Dad who brought me to the doc.. :)
I got my nike jogging shoes..
And once in a while thing, Dad said he'll pay for my expensive doc fees, and my relatively cheap jogging shoes!

Back home, I web-cam-ed with Jer..!! Woo...I almost gave up waiting after sitting before the lappie for 2 hours..thinking he has probably went to bed...BUt just as I brought my laptop to be put on the floor beside my bed ( I haven give up totally...just hoping that in case he logins and i can still hear the alert in my nap) And just as I was gonna close my laptop's LCD, an alert came and he came online!

Chatted w him for like 1.5hrs and got my updates on the cheeky!!

Xiang said..I must be smiling like an idiot ..hees. Well..yea, yes, yuppss. ;p

Love you the most!
its difficult to be obsessive and non-sticky, but i am. ;p

2:24 PM

Labels: Dine, Family, Friendship, happy, my love :), Myself

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The second last lesson of the intermediate class. It feels damn fast...like I haven been through 12 lessons. Until last night, I did not know that the next level is already advance..and according to ShaSha, advance will be an ongoing level or we can choose to integrate with other dances, say G-style.

and yea..I haven gotten injuries from dance for a long time, a good 2-3 months i think. But yesterday was a whole series of 'dancing on the floor' Imagine sliding your knees on the floor for one-eight. Oh, that is enough to cause days of bruises...coz trying and practicing the one-eight repeatedly makes it many-many eights..

It's a pity that Xiao Ke would be leaving for the school in M'sia in around Dec.. Dont really feel like changing teacher but i guess...it's not within our control.

Oh, and I find it funny...i mean REALLY funny to see a grandma taking the granddaughter to the dance studio for 'Girls on top' first lesson..kiss her before she goes and dance and even watch her through the lesson I heard...Sometimes, people just need some personal space to grow..



I'd start with Chapter one: Love innocent and young

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did a recovery for my laptop last night despite being damn tired and strained on the disappointing back...It just keep giving me problems..it makes me feel a few years older than weeks ago AGAIN. Looks like I have to drop by the doc soon, hopefully within this week.

I guess I just dont have the patience to wait for something that I expect to be prompt.. Hence I did the recovery and waited until all the important programmes especially MSN, Anti-virus and web-cam, devices and softwares are installed before i collapsed onto my bed..

And only to find out in the midst of the recovery that I lost some photos for Jaan..it really made my heart break..like...WHAT?! I just cant believe it man. Fortunately, i loaded MOST of the pics to a web album in the afternoon..so i managed to retrieve most of the photos but not all.. and not in the initial best quality.. :(

So now, i see the importance of making multiple back-up of files and photos especially. Dont wanna be so careless again.. Zzz.

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Reaching Jaan about 20 mins before cheeky as he went to look for a parking lot in Raffles City, I was presented with the all-too-familiar restaurant's menu. I flipped through the exorbitant delicacy still cant decide what to have for the night.


Before the arrival of the king of the week, I was sorta entertained by a Caucasian waiter in black suit and tall build. He even joked that he can accompany me for dinner if my date is not turning up. But well, of coz my cheeky is coming! It's my first dinner treat for him and he fetched chubby there!

Absorbing the ambience of the cosy little place which seats only 60 patrons, Cheeky arrived shortly and agreed that the place is really cosy..

And finally it's time to open my present, in my previous post, the same waiter walked past and passed a cheeky look. For some odd reasons, I felt a little shy and saw myself like the actress in some dramas..especially from the moment of opening the red little box to the moment when cheeky puts it on for me :D

Upon making our orders for the dinner, we were served with the Complimentary from the Chef. We had raw salmon, a very small piece one (I ate it man!) The texture was smooth and didnt had the fishy taste instead of light fragrant.


The Pita bread sticks on the other hand were displayed in a flower-vase like manner. Each of them is one long crunchy stick that goes well with the sauce and rich butter.

Maybe the fan of Snails

Bacon And Potato Ballotine, Hazelnut-Goat Cheese Croquette
Parsley Gnocchi Coulant

It took us some time to realise which part is exactly the Snail.. No. It's not the big black ball of Bacon and Potato Ballotine which was awesome. You wont get sick of it. Slightly moist and pieces of bacon stuffed in it. What I love most about this dish, unfortunately, is not the snails but the Hazelnut-Goat Cheese Croquette..which I claim to be amazing. The crispy crust outside, only to reveal a pinkish white inside which is totally different from the common potato croquette! I really love that!


As for the snails, it's tucked below the bacon and potato ballotine mix with mushrooms. With both the mushrooms and snails being black..its kinda difficult to distinguish which is which at first. It then all boils down to tasting and differentiating by the texture of the two.

Good Bye my dear.. :(

Thats probably his last view of Singapore before he left. And at this point in time when i'm blogging..he's already far far away from me..


And i agree with what many people have told me..it will be damn unbearable in the beginning.. .. Indeed.

it begins

4.59 PM

Labels: Anniversary, Extravagance/Fine-Dining, Indelible memories, my love :)

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He handed me a SK paper bag just before we left the house for Jaan at Swissotel. The hardly surprised soul received the surprise in the form of a delayed happiness.

I didnt exclaim the moment I received the red paper bag coz still accepting this surprise in sweetness and yea, real surprise, in abit of a shock. I didnt expect it at all. No instint at all this time.

Yet I was still kept in suspense in not supposed to open nor peep until we are seated in Jaan.

I was asked to guess the item inside. My guess? A necklace, judging from the paper bag. Cheeky being cheeky, he told me it's a watch but not a Guess watch..which led me to rack my brains over the available brands of watch in the market...I didnt really believe it totally though. Why would he tell me the answer all of a sudden..hahas.

Opening the red pyramidal box, i felt the rush of excitement, anticipation and happiness.. :) The second gift i'm receiving from Cheeky... :)))

opening the red box while peeping..

and thats what chubby koon got... A SK diamond necklace! Indeed, a first diamond necklace ...and it gets nicer and nicer when I look at it.

Appreciated the gift my dear :). Despite the fact that you are in need of money now...you still got me such an expensive gift.. thanks alotsa..alotsa! And now, I have another lovely gift to accompany me for that 2 months, reminding me of cheeky's company. :D Thanks, my sweet darling ^^


And the entry for dining at Jaan will be coming next.. :))

you made the moments.
:)

Labels: Anniversary, Indelible memories, my love :), Surreal, Sweet

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I was playing with photoshop yesterday night and thought of doing something like this.. my sweet memories.. :)
Al Dente Trattoria, Black Angus, Top of the M, Chatterbox, Morton's the Steakhouse, Town restuarant, Chang Korean BBQ, Outback Steakhouse, Aglio Oglio surprise, My Humble House...


:D



I dont know how or why I feel different in your eyes

Labels: Anniversary, my love :)

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I need the extra strength to hold the body upright. It isnt exactly screaming pain but it feels like there's needles and lemons poking and dripping on me constantly.

hate this :(
makes me wanna go to the sinseh like immediately, when usually i avoid if i can. ( i avoid all kinds of docs.)

None of the positions feel right..:(
Stand, sit straight,sit slanted, sit slouching, sit curled, walk, lie down, squat..

sighs. it's getting off off off my nerves!
shall try to sleep it off. *pouts*



for the last overview

Labels: Myself

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30 June 2008-Friday

Friday was a birthday celebration for ze! A relatively large group of us turned up at New York New York. As many would agree, it's such a regret that the place cant seat us in one single table..we had to split. Nevetheless, the 24 year old ze was grinning widely to the extent that I thought he looked drunk even before he drank a single bit...

After which, we headed over to Chijmes for a drink. Thought the atmosphere was kinda weird coz many of us dont wanna drink, including me. But, i was somehow forced by cheeky. hahas!
And i realised, Vodka with Mango JUice was nice :)

To end the night, Jeffery played the role of an 'entertainer' as well. He's constantly filling his own cups to drown his sorrows. Poor Jeff, but i would understand how he feels if i were him. And like most people who are drunk, they tend not to admit.

When asked bout the estimated length of my relationship w cheeky, everything is with reference to me and conclusion was 'more than a year' coz i give off a kind of aura..

*grins* i went home w a red lobster. hahas!
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31st June 2008 - Saturday

Dinner on Saturday was spent at the neighbourhood Swensen (TM).. Somewhat strange when you dont see the normal crowd in town but families and families..

The topic of the night had quite a constant revolving around cheeky's internship over at MIT.
I guess im very well-prepared for his missing presence already since i was prepared way before a month ago. Just less than a week left before I go into a 'as-if-single mode'. Nevetheless, i want cheeky to take care of himself and not ask me to take care of myself. Hahas, i've been blur for like 19 years? i'll be fine. :)
Alrights, and back to the food that night. The Rustic Ruby was a drink included in my meal of "Princely Chicken" running in tandem with The Narnias, Prince of Caspian. Well, it's too sweet and syrupy for my liking, but i still finished it. hahas. Like Day of Prince for me..since we caught the movie after dinner..

I had a WEIRD craving for the past few days...to eat sth that i can CUT slowly. Sounds abit...sicko. lolx. Tried the Princely Chicken with tomato sauce and almonds, served with savoury rice and celery salad..not too bad..satisfied by crave for cutting quite a bit.

Also, one of cheeky's favourite - Salmon & Mushroom Baked Rice. Sizzling Hot when served. Satisfying combination-Cheese, Rice, Salmon and mUshroom :P

I chose the "Damn fries" instead of the Breaded Mushrooms coz it always mark the days of our beautiful memories. Times when he has the craving for 'damn fries'... :))

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1 June 2008 - Sunday

Attended church with Cheeky on sunday. The second time that i'm doing that. Nono, im not converting. I'm just attending for the fun of it and since I haven done it for quite some time.

But everytime when I see the believers with great devotion and faith..I just feel a lack of understanding. Coz i will never understand the kind of belief and faith they have .

At night, I had a great dinner with Cheeky's extended family. Grandparents, cousins, aunties and uncles(i think)..and parents. Zach is so cute..too bad he cried the moment i carried him. tsk!


Last but not least, will bear in mind Shaun's advice. (though he always wanna punch me ..Zzzz.) "2 months will pass every quickly...probably the first few weeks will be a bit more unbearable. But before you know it, he's back already"

:)
one of the last few weekends with cheeky. :(
(: but i'll cherish.
another left.

ohoh, and i got my intellectual pics! Collecting all the different sides of cheeky. hahas. but it's privatised! ;p


promise. :)

Labels: Dine, Friendship, my love :)

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The ladder gets longer..and longer.

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Labels: Family, inner voices

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Labels: my love :), Sweet

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Followed the small bridge-like pathway were furnitures that resembles the home of a dracula especially the chairs that are like those seen on flims of castle..to me at least.

Home of The Count

Guess the Green Tea Dumpling is really the highlight of the day. I would expect the Green tea to be in part of the filling of the dumpling but apparently i was wrong. Instead of immersing itself into the fresh fillings, it stands out as a coating of the Dumplings. Subtle sweetness in the dumplings! Really love it! Highly recommended! The nicest dumplings I've ever tried :D Oh and coincidentally, there were EIGHT of them..


The Hot and Sour Soup came up next. A very thick and rich taste that aint too sour nor hot. Unique enough. And it comes in a small-enough portion to let you yearn for more..


The next favourite of the day is the Olive fried Rice. "Wow" I let out in a very surprising tone as I didnt expect it would be THAT nice! Normally im not a fan of fried rice but seriously..that was damn good. The fragrance of the rice with the light sweetness of the olive with appropriate amount of ingredients in it. it's just marvellous!

Indeed.

Seafood in the bait basket...the most chinese style amongst all the others..and the least fav of all. Ironically..it is the most expensive one. BUt the fact that the scallops and prawns were huge, fresh and to the extent of being spongey makes it quite a good deal.

burnt on the face.

Through the conversation with him, it strucked me.. leaving me in the wonders of the definition of treasuring and happiness. Coz i lost the meaning of it somewhere when i thought i really did.. (Like I thought i never treasured someone/ something so much before and havent felt so happy for so long despite a semi-rocky month. ) But when i realised these were being denied by a crucial someone that all you have been believing is not true, i dont know how else i can do it if i thought that was my best.. It seems like when ur definition of certain things doesnt match, no matter how what, to the other one...you are always not doing it. Leaving me with 3 options: 1. Dont Care, continue the way I am. 2. Give up, why continue trying? 3. Try harder..

I just cant lose myself in this anymore. im getting from bad to worst..worst to disastrous...

But the good thing now is..I've found the strength again..to move on..whether it's move on to fight or to move on back to my world.. im beginning to regain bits and bits of strength to fight on, though slow, to remain in a world that doesnt belongs to me at all..

And I know a million apologies wouldnt help.
I should maybe just shut.
Think twice and thrice before u speak, koon.
Yes. And that would make me even slower than usual..

Anyway. important thing is lesson learnt.

I really did appreciate all the 3 celebrations, be it simple, casual, efforts or extravagance.. if anyone believes.. Let's fight on. That's my optimistic fighting spirit ( just that i took too many rest..). Strong again! Somehow I always manage to stand up again!:))

Labels: Anniversary, Extravagance/Fine-Dining, my love :), Ordeal-Erd.pty

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Clarice, ShiYa, Koon, Catherine, Annie

using mirror reflection~~

Popping, Lyrical,etc?

Labels: Dance

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One of my colleagues gave birth today and despite not being very familiar with her, i dropped by with Jooyi and Samantha to visit her. I stood one side looking at the baby in those carriages..she's really adorable. Fidgeting with her eyes closed and displaying all sortas expression. You know how it feels like when you see a baby? Sometimes it's more than just thinking...' >.< so cute!'

Wrapped tightly with a pink towel like a small little parcel..i felt the happiness of hers and her husband. And then the whole narration of the labour process...apparently giving birth is not simply 'push harder'. I think its freaking nerve-racking especially for the first baby of one. But to most parents, the warmth and happiness as the fruits are so worth it. While of course Ive heard many whining about the loss of personal freedom and rest. Poor thing in a sense.

Sensed the nostalgia when i saw the nursery coz its like those i saw on the TV. For the first time I got to overlook the glasses and look at carriages and carriages of babies in pink and blue towels.. Woo. Cute little dolls. :P

And i often wonder........................................


Sometimes i just cant help it but creep into a corner..

Labels: Reflections

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very addicted to this song since long before exams.. I love the arrangement and the lyrics in it! :)

Labels: Media

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Labels: Anniversary, happy, Indelible memories, my love :), Sweet

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i'm back in SERI for the third time. It's pretty unbelievable. I never thought that I would be back again this holiday. From being an admin assistant that seriously does nonsense stuff to HR for bout a week. And then to finance the last holiday. This holiday..im taking over the Admin Executive position. Working so far has been quite slack. hahas.


Game

. It's getting clearer that life is a game. A game of winning or losing, bounded by deceiving non-obligatory rules. Why does it feel like it's almost preset for most things, like a videogame? Exactly how much control can we have? Just that it seems to be one with more varitaions, in terms of the types and numbers of obstacles you have to go through. Some really have a better life. While some often are not as lucky. We have to work doubly hard to acheive the same thing. And i often wonder..as much as we say its up to us to determine our own destiny that follows fate..is there still a 'hidden fate'? As in..if u choose and try to enforce ur destiny to be A...there is already a fixed consequence and that is the hidden fate. i.e. Fate A can lead to Fate B,C,D or E depending on what u have choose to do. In this sense..fate and destiny seems undistinguishable in this game of life.

Then again life is never entirely unfair but ther's always other small good things around, like the small little rewards we have in the midst of a game.

It may not be as rewarding as the typical acheivements in 'that game' but those who have the big things wont have the small...which makes life..


dont be afraid. lil gal..u'll be fine. :)

Labels: Family, inner voices, Work

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Yea. Finally getting a proper life these days and this will probably last me for about three months. Now i can watch tv, play, shop, dance, sleep without much worries. I haven been dancing without feeling carefree for a couple of weeks. Finally enjoying it like mad on wed :))

I got myself into a shopping spree mood these days. I cant help it but tell myself 'i wanna buy things!" Its both the conscious and sub-conscious at work. And bad habit i have is ..if im unhappy...i spend even more when im out. Sometimes it feels like it's spending for the sake of spending.


9 May 08 (Friday) - Outback Steakhouse

It has been quite a while that cheeky had this cravinng if I didnt remember it wrongly. For sure it was before exams..so that makes it at least 3 weeks. Every dish in that menu looks nice to me. The sides, the main..etc.

And this place...sits across Candy Empire in Millenia Walk.

Labels: Anniversary, Extravagance/Fine-Dining, happy, my love :)

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How can you ever be sure that your secret will be safe in someone elses hand? You put so much trust and ease into believing that they will guard it for you as promised.

Yet things just happen and it further proves my point that there's no one else besides myself. ..

No one to trust entirely like myself.
No one that i should rely on except myself.
No one to bear the responsibility except myself.
No one can understand except myself.

Another reminder that...in this world there's only me for myself.


speechless

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It looks like no matter how many times I've gone through this cycle, i will still experience this kind of ecstatic feeling, yet feeling worry that i cant finish studying because of 'mental distractions' on the eve of last paper (at the same time!)....

yes. the kind of feeling on the eve of freedom.. Major exams used to be once a year...now it becomes twice a year if i only count final papers..

Like my mind is scattered all over the place...happily...yet guilty. hahas



i'll have my hugs tml!

Labels: Uni-

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"Through unrestrained pornography, there is a return to the body, which is a lost body. This obscene body is not a body to come, it's a lost body. It's the equivalent of a cadaver, putting to death of the body. I admit it bothers me profoundly. What shocks me in pornography is that in it, boredom is weeping. There are the tears of boredom, not those of pleasure. " - Paul Virillio

Oh great. how interesting literatures..



The distraction of distraction.
The enthusiasm of boredom.

Labels: Uni-

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Simple yet was one of those important ones

Sweet Surrender

12:09 AM

Labels: Indelible memories, my love :)

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what happens when you got so much to say but ur fingers and ur lips just wont do the talking.. ?

its weird. Just like when u're entering a place. You put one step in and just as you're really going in, you step out again.

so much like a self-confinement but it really warms the heart and opens it a lil to see someone relentlessly trying..and i did break into a smile. Still wondering what i was doing..



Angel of Mercy.

Labels: inner voices, Media

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Checked out a new place yesterday.

A resturant and bar that stands in the middle of Istana Park, vividly along the way to PS!

Garlicky Chicken, Giraffe Salad, Crumbed Mushrooms

As for food, the Giraffe salad with soft shell crab was nice. It's dressing has wasabe in it..which i love ;) It just makes the salad taste so nice...and i think it has tinges of sweetness in it too!

Jer's Garlicky Chicken was really nice as well, and i dn expect it when i look at the menu.

And lastly the buttons of mushrooms in bread crumbs w their home-made tar tar sauce!

hahas, but i think the food there are relatively expensive, matching serving with value. It's quite nice though.

Oh! and it's pretty much a place for gatherings...

During our wait for Harold and Kumar...a real 'stupid' show but i had a good laugh. Needy of this for this stressful period!

And finally we caught the LIveBAnD in action over Cathay's Ben and Jerry. hahas, yes...We just love that somewhat... LIVEBAND in action
New York Super Fudge Chunk, Cherry Glacia, Chocolate chip Cookie Dough

And i think we've tried almost all the flavours there.....hahas. Maybe not vanilla. hahas

:) A very lovely night.
It's a very weird feeling coz somehow times spent like this..on a friday night..and taking Fort Road back etc feels like im back to 7 months ago.

I know who I've got, what I've got.
awww, i love you so'

Labels: Extravagance/Fine-Dining, my love :)

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hahas. Very funny. I was studying halfway and suddenly got distracted. I was wondering exactly how many Clarin's Beauty products I actually possess..yes. damn weird I know.

Ranging from body lotions, face toners, moisturiser, eye creams, make-up remover, foundation, energising essences, mask..etc. And im still planning to get some other products soon. hahas, a gal's expenses. All these are ONLY clarins. I haven even include others from Body Shop, Chanel, etcetc.

Oh, and the scary thing is the 3 sisters are ALL supporters and members of Clarins.. That means we all each own at least 300 Bucks worth of their products each for a member.. SOunds terrible..

And esp the elder sis..she bought even more stuff...I should find one day and count how many Clarins products are there in total among the 3 of us! These expenses seem so invisible..like i cant see them.

Power and Effect Size!

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Arghs. I dunnoe why i cant sleep well last nite.. Took a very long time to sleep and had constant awakes in the midst of sleep.Worst of all, I'm up now! at 8+.. I'm just in the midst of bring the circadian rhythm of the body to normal. Looks like it's only half-way there. hmm, simply feel sooo tired. Don't you hate the feeling of being tired yet you can't sleep? I do.

My anxiety for exams are building up...and I know that nothing is more important than that now...
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24 Apr 08

Went mugging w Ze again yester. I had a great 7 hours of efficiency..We Had his friend joining us, which I thought..hMPHS. He doesnt look like the name implies at all.

Oh and The problem with people studying Psychology (or at least us) is that we constantly link and keep thinking who is displaying which phenomenon. hahas. And he kept using that on me. From the in-group, out-group to cognitive dissonance then Schizo.. Such idiots.

Labels: Friendship, Uni-

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22 April 08

I know what it means when someone can do better than Dance in Cheering me up, in quelling negativities. Dance usually is a very helpful activity in disconnecting me from the outside world and what happens in my mind is only whats in the studio.

But this time, during Dance practice, my mind was disconnected from dance. And consciously upsetting myself with senseless and unworthy issues.

At the end of dance, I stood at the same street.. Walking back and forth in my shades despite the darkness.. I would like to avoid stares by people when I get puffy and watery in the eyes. Was ups and downs in the mind...well but not AS bad as before dance. Dance did help a lil, afterall. But i didnt know what to do...can I act like im fine? I tried but apparently someone who somewhat understands me saw me through.

"Can I ask why?"
I seriously got stuck at that question. It may sound easy to answer..but I just cant utter anything..because I know if i steered emotions away and view things from an objective angle, technically nothing should be bothering me..

And there we were..standing at the end of the train's platform, i finally could voice out what I had in mind slowly..And im glad that he's patient enough to wait for me to talk things out between the tears. This could be the nth time that he's telling me these and I understood them, still try to be as understanding as I can...But I hope this time they will really penetrate me...coz i really know and trust what he's saying..

At the end of the day, he still never fails to make me laugh and be genuinely happy. ..

As he insists, we went for a light dinner...Somehow i think its to really ensure that im back to normal......

We passed by New York New York and dropped the plans of TCC..Time at NYNY was great, I felt like a normal person again..

Caesar Salad.

Was amazed when he told me that he feels like eating Salad...for the first time. A non-veggie lover tells me he feels like eating that..hahas. :)

I really want myself to remember this night. Really Really. Just like how the pinky promises sealed w lovely kisses continue to push me on. This night, it should be more..if not a reinforcement to whatever we had. Yes, u're right...i gotto believe that U know ur choices..and u're a man who only pursue what u're happy with..

I cant let anything else just take away what we had so easily. And I should be stronger than that.

At the end of the day, I returned home feeling really happy..like I've just fell in love again.

i can be a baby but i cant be a kid.. :p

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What Ah Ze shaoye said is exactly what I think as well. But he doesnt get it. Hate this...
Thought I was fine man. Apparently not so. Getting so vulnerable nowadays. I can Ze what went thru in my mind like im okae and i was. But now..sighs. Right now, I cant lie to myself anymore. I hate to see myself this way.


well, let me sidetrack to happier things in life...things and people who cheered koon UP :)
hahas, as always im damn lame when im tired. To the extent that I cant accept it as well.

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YES
YES
YES
YES
YES

ARGHS

again again again again again.

hahas** i just need to shout out.


overnight studies again :)

blasting songs is a v good remedy!
feeling damn anti-social these days..
- realised that most of my entries are very 'shady' and can have different ways in interpreting it..Hidden meanings alot. Esp the THOUGHTS entries...all of em, my feelings deeply embedded. Unless you're the person involved or in the known, you probably wun know what the hell im writting. So the point is, if u dun understand, dun ask me bout it. If you're supposed to know, u should be able to understand, at least part of it. And, dont make alleged guesses. hahas

Labels: Ordeal-Erd.pty

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Phew. So glad that Jerica asked me out to mug now!

Something to anchor my hands,eyes and mind. hahas. and stop looking at the same thing over and over again............

yayys! Midnight; overnight mugging!..
mum and dad said im mad....why not mug at home.
hahas. well..efficiency and focus is at stake.!

gambattes folks. join me join me!

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Back! - *claps!* We did it! ..studied ALL THE WAY till 7am!

gambattes candies fr Jerica

Really sweet. Made me a happy gal again! Thanks:)

focus focus focus

Labels: Ordeal-Erd.pty

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aww, what's with that phrase?

2:06 PM

Labels: inner voices, Myself, Ordeal-Erd.pty

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It's never easy making a decision when emotions, reality, practicality and all other kinds of factors entangled together. The fact that Í cant see each of them as clearly as i wished to blurred the parameters of decisions. But how should the perimeters be framed on?

A Question to be answered over the rest of the journey of my life i guess.

Is it a time to step out of my own world of self-delusive kind of decision making process? Then again, how sure am I that those are self-delusive? Is a time to open up and even subsitute some of these parameters? How can I even stop my emotions and irrationality from posessing me over rationality, maturity and impulsiveness? And when will I really stop myself from deciding on things that I don't really want?



and when the pride builds up..

Labels: Ordeal-Erd.pty, Reflections

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11 April 2008.

Not only this is my first time to Dempsey Hill, it was also my first time to a Korean Charcoal BBQ place. Well, I wun take Seoul Garden into consideration. hahas. My mind, of coz, was filled with curiosity with what they have to offer!

The most memorable part of the dinner, besides the food, should come from 'Teaching How to Use a pair of Chopsticks correctly'. At least one of the very few times that I get to teach this man something. But the correct way of holding and ease of moving the chopstick with the middle finger just cant get across that easily. Perharps im a lousy teacher. hahas. But things like this have become such a natural thing to me that I din really realise the mechanism of the whole process - from lifting them up and using them. But as usual, his mind turned so agile when he picked up the pieces of Tofu by letting it lie down on the chopsticks. And, I havent thought of that...leaving me really speechless.

Went to the Ben & Jerry (yes, again) which many people told me that it is a really nice place for chilling out. So yes, we went over after dinner, a very short drive over. Yayys.

The crowd was amazing over there, with semi-long queues at the counters making the staffs of Ben & Jerry seemingly breathless. The decor of the place was v Euro like with a 'fireplace' at where the live band is supposed to be. And just near the toilet area, the place is designed looking run-down with faded paints and tapes around the walls.

Just got all kinds of weird ideas to incorporate the artsy red lamp into my pictures. I was hoping that I cant climb on a chair and take a pic from top featuring the lamp! hahas.

Reality of Phantom

2:04 AM

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***Samgyeobsal: Pork Belly
** Daji Yangyeom Galbi: Marinated Pork Rib
* Hobak Bulgogi: Broiled Beef in Pumpkin
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Labels: Anniversary, ecstatic, Extravagance/Fine-Dining, Indelible memories, my love :), Sweet

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Im so glad that I've made the decision to part with the few hundred bucks just months ago. It's really more than worth it! This is about the seventh month of lessons. Each lesson and practice never fail to bring me away from reality. It drops me inside this beautiful world of music and movements with each of the beautiful lady in the class. All in the mind are music, waves and beats. The body moves. The mind counts.

Here we are at the Intermediate level of Reggae, the difficulty level jumps up again. At the Beginner(1) level, we learnt movements that emphasised on force, movements which do not requires multiple coordination of different body parts. At the Beginner(2) level, the dance moves slightly away from the hard body movements and towards the feminine and sexy moves. And just towards the end of that level, we learnt a relatively explosive wild dance.

In the first lesson for Intermediate, we were taught movements that move freely (to seem as though there were no hard body movements, to look as if u were lazy, yet not so) and revealed to that things gonna change in the level. eg. Waves wouldnt be the normal body width from the upper body but from the abdominal. oh gosh, sounds amazing!

Arghs. but i cant catch the FEEL during practice just now~ But had great fun with the gals just now.. dance is one of those times that nobody cares about image, nobody is shy. We just go all way out to dance and enjoy ourselves. :)

And after practice, met Dear for dinner. Thanks sweetie for waiting, you could have went home and rest or sth. :) Over the months, meeting along Red Dot has become one sweet memory that I still haven quite bear to depart w. One of those coincidences in life. Who would have thought that my dance school is just around the same area as his office.

Dinner was at The Soup Spoon over at Raffles City. Gave Shokudo a miss since we were both not v hungry.

Chocolate Therapy, Strawberry Kiwi Sorbet, Coffee Coffee Buzzbuzz

Managed to get a sofa seat at one corner. Well,not exactly very corner too. LOL. But a very comfty seat that made me wanna lie there on his shoulders for a lot longer..but was getting late...So, we still got to go off being i get over-reliant on sendin and fetching..

Oh yea, glad that my mind is off the bouncing thoughts now!! Dun wan my words on my notes and readings to start bouncing at me too later. hahaas. very funny bouncing 'talk' and ideas.

It's so strong and now I let myself be Sincere.

1:17 AM

Labels: Dance, Dine, happy food., my love :)

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Something seems amiss this semester.

I've been feeling relatively free ever since mid-terms and it's not coz im slacking but it's coz i've finished studying what I need to study. (or am I studying too little?) And exams will be here in like 3 weeks time...seriously wonder if im on the right track?! Why am I able to study at a relatively comfortable pace without the need of rushing through like last semester? Weird thing is ..this sem, I played more and spent more time w cheeky! * weird!

On a side note, got back my 3 sociology essays today! All of them were at least 2 grades up my own expectations. Hahas. So happy and proud of myself =x. Little little things that boost my confidence!

I've been real piggy these weeks/months. Sleeping an average of AT LEAST 7hrs everyday. Gotto push myself to kick this habit and cap it at a MAX of 6 hrs! *Beginning of mugging times...
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Dropped by vivo today and bought something really lovely. (I think it is*) Something that I've been wanting to get for a long long time. But it's either the wrong time, can't bear to or nothing is nice enough. And I finally saw something that at least passed my desirability meter, then the 'I like' meter and finally rated as *lovely and cool at the same time! Oh, how can that be!? *happy!



This innocence is brillant. I hope it will stay.

Labels: Uni-

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These days, recalling happy memories is accompanied with tinges of sadness and sourness. A weird kind of combination. I have been questioning myself 'why am I feeling this way?". Feelings that aren't suppose to overlap each other yet continue to prove myself wrong. Perharps it's an expecting of uncertainties matched w a lack of confidence in my abilities to handle situations and thus making decisions.

And its only recently that I realised that too little of those day-to-day memories are recorded. For sure, special celebatory moments are recorded in this little space. Yet I seemed to have neglected a little of those sweet everyday moments. When I recall them, they too formed an important piece of that circle we're in. Despite being the most frequent compared to each of the celebratory moments, they were never enough nor too ordinary. And I wanna lock as much of them in my memory as possible.



It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
-Yes. I have a choice

Labels: my love :), Reflections

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I cant really remember when I acquired this pretty weird habit. The habit of observing ladies' necks when I come across any of them, anywhere. While I used to take note of hair, dressing styles and of course body shapes of pretty gals, I cant helped it but to look out for a beautiful neck. And these days or months, it has became one of the first thing that I get well, "attracted" to.

Those sags, lines or ugly wrinkles are hardly take note by people. In terms of skin care, i believe many of us focused on face and hands, probably legs as well. Those areas give our age off almost immediately. But I think neck is equally important! How weird it is when i see ladies with beautiful facial skin but a very dull-looking neck skin. The weirdest thing of all is that I see ladies as young as lower secondary sch developing those really ugly lines...which i really hate and fear.

And conclusion so far, one with a nicely even-toned out neck, also without pigmentation looks tons younger and fresher.... and its very hard to find beautiful neck skin around if you observe as constantly as me, you'll know. LOL*

Ive been wondering about what exactly causes them since i've seen both plump and very very skinny woman having them. So went to read bout it.. as usual there's more than one such causes, just goes to show the vulnerability of the skin.

5 basic causes ive found..
1. Fat losses
2. Poor skin care
3. Unprotected exposure to the sun.
4. Genetics
5. Sleeping wrinkles

arghs, so dont forget ur necks! If the problem is aldy there...(think its quite normal too since i see alot of ppl having those problems)...well,salvage as much as u can.. just do a search online to find ways to stop these problems.. :)


taking care of my neck. =x

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I dunnoe why i didnt take photos at Fish & Co and took some photo which I already have in my photos collection. guess it's just my instinct to take those desserts pics. And even if I already have them, it's another piece of similar yet non-identical memory :) And this time i realised how messy it is the dark devotion is compared to Morton's Hot Choc Cake..(which was awesome).. keke.

At one try, i drew this :)

`29 March 08

And these days I realised myself being addicted to "Zack and Wiki", a logic/IQ console game. Somewhat love to rack my brains over things, things that I cant help but keep thinking of it until I've solved it.

`30 March 08

Surprisingly I spent time alone in cheeky's house without feeling very weird. Not easy to come by such 'houses' LOL. Spent the dinner time with his family at Crystal Jade as a belated birthday celebration for his mum and began to feel the wonders of warmth in different or another family. Seeing how mums can also get excited and happy in celebrating their birthday and even buying a cake! This kinda of feeling ,from the view of a youngster or children, is like heart-warming even though i just plainly bring it across with the word "cute". But indeed cute too isnt it? When someone older seems to be back into child-like behavior. Just goes to show everyone has a child-like side. I believe so. Of coz you dont reveal that to just anyone out there.

And it's the companion and attention of your loved ones that makes you happy on especially special days. :)


more hugs!

12:39 AM

Labels: Dine, happy food., Indelible memories, my love :), Reflections

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when someone else i love gets on the social stage, me as a receiver.. i feel heartaches.
I became an audience who doesnt know how to applause. I cant focus on my own things too.
In that play i cant help wondering the real emotions played in the actor's mind.

haven got any actor around me that could affect me like this for some time. The time an audience is worried bout the actor.




i wished i was the scriptwriter.
if there was one.

Labels: Emo.., inner voices, my love :)

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My bodily ailing mum always have endless complaints. But I know..her life in this family is not easy, just that she's taking it well. Only getting one off day per week and standing long hours at the booth for the other 6 days. To reveal to me that the pains on her knees are climbing up the thighs area too. And i didnt know what to say man..can just keep quiet and wonder my mind off why the stupid dad is sooo good at feigning ignorance. If I can have an award of "Best Award in Feigning Ignornance", I gotto give it to him man. For the the deliberate digression and ignornance made over the years. Inevitably, i do feel at fault sometimes. Somehow or rather.

Sometimes, i dunnoe if its lucky or a misfortune that im the only one who made it to an Uni. Esp she told me again today, that the elder sis thinks that she's bias towards me, making me think why is she as childish whenever she wants things in her way? Wanting mum to sponsor her not-very-important things becoz mum sorta sponsored me my lappie. Then she has her haphazard comparisions.. She always like that...when temper comes, maturity and logic become like it was never part of her.



while i listen quietly to all these, make me wanna laugh and think..
indeed every family has its own problems..
i should just count my blessings. :)



VisualDNA: im a love magnet ..
http://youniverse.com/love/results/b14208c096c339dafe9b9774f60cfc0d

i did wonder, how would things be if i had chose the other path.

Labels: Family

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I started my weekend well off with AJ's Dance concert at the Victoria Theatre on thursday. Though im not a fan of contemporary dance, i must say that its quite good! Next headed for movie at Cine w dear..Caught 'The Orphanage' and 'Vantage point'. Both shows were pretty good. And who knows, for the first time when im out w him, i saw a friend.

Had a real good heart-to-heart chat w my cheeky man on friday night, talking about things that really stirred out emotions. We never know what will happen from then onwards but i know, this man really loves me now and I love u too! My talks of fantasy, dreams. But I seriously don't know how I will handle things. Then again, I must say....its not wrong, not socially wrong even though it deviates from the social norms. Its just a matter of how accepting I am.

And then the disaster struck on friday midnite onwards, when i started shivering away with constant gastric/stomachache. On and off fevers from then on until now. Fortunately, I must say, thanks to darling for constantly checking on me, taking care of me despite potentially draining him and taking his peaceful weekends away. And I know, someone out there cares. ;]]



on the way to recovery.

Labels: my love :), Myself

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-19 March 2007

Met up with Goey and sis for Goey's belated dinner after my vigorous dance lesson! Suggested this place to goey, an authentic Korean Resturant, at Red DOt. I was tempted to go because of the private room it offers us. And the fact that I have walked past it twice a week for the past 6 months ....Should take a look,=x

And apparently each private room has a name. We were tucked into this private room called the 'Sailfish".. And how do you get the waitresses? ....Press the bell. 'Ding"!

Labels: Extravagance/Fine-Dining, Friendship

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Entrance

Brought to the seats at the lower level and I began to observe the patrons *again. hahas. Feels like a paradise for tai-tais. Despite that, the ambience was great, not so orangey compared to usual but like the quiet atmosphere. It allows one to indulge in sumptous feast and communicate with ease.

Another shot which I took when I walked around taking pics. hahas. I think thats the Cavenagh Bridge if i'm not wrong. Nice view! While I always stood on the bridge absorbing the sight of Esplanade, the river and Fullerton, I didnt expect myself to be able to look at the scenary from the angle of The Fullerton.

Labels: Anniversary, ecstatic, Extravagance/Fine-Dining, Indelible memories, my love :)

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I returned feeling excited, wanting to blog down the another beautiful page of the story yet i found the photos which i transferred to the thumbdrive missing! I'm damn upset!

Alrights, guess i'll have to blog bout it some other times when i get hold of the pics again! No fantasy distractions for me while im trying complete the highly mind stirring Sociology essay. Its not quite hard but i think its challenging and fun. The topic of deviance and comparing theories such as Strain, Functionalist, Feminist, Conflict and Symbolic Interactionism theories. All these theories are making me a lil confused here and there for they overlap a little yet have their own distinct argument which my job is to fliter them out and put them down in simple words.

*confused, confused*

Oh, luckily i got some paparazzi-ed photos. hees. So, to the sneaks and have a guess where we went! ;P

Labels: blur., my love :), Uni-

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Yupps. Feeling tight with time. Other than my standard timetable, dance lessons and practices, time i wanna spend with dear and time in gym, track or pool, the rest of the time is up to me to play around to manage my tasks on hand. Feeling busy because of last minute work, i wonder if one has the right to say..'i'm busy'.

It then reminds me of this person who gave a smirk to someone who seems to be really free and then began to compare a busy person to her. And the connotation I've gotten out of it is that..there seems to be something wrong to be a free person in this quickened society. So much so that by right, an undergraduate shouldnt be said to be free. (of coz other people like kids and secondary students can afford to be ..free) The more busy you more, the higher value you would be.

Oh gosh, the pressure to tell others u're busy is depressing.

i think im not busy, just too much stoning. Just like I'm in the midst of stoning now. Supposed to do a final consolidation of Psy Stats test tml. Seriously hope it will not be too tough. And after that, time shall be given to socio and affinity group project.


By the way folks, i think i better say this before more people come asking me. I've removed the tagboard. Kindly take half the effort more to comment instead :]]


so tired now ;( and i dunnoe why i love to 'talk' to my blog when im bored/tired. lolx.






Some opportunities are hard to come by!

Labels: Reflections, Uni-

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There are always these transition hours on Sunday nights. To get myself back to reality and school work. To push myself to study again. Even though I had been studying during the weekends as well, its different coz I hear amusing swearing and cursing behind me, get hugs suddenly, and receive cheekiness once in a while.

The tendency is to reminisce the few 72 hours back in contentment and elation. ;]

And what's on my mind now?! I'm extremely glad that there is no misunderstanding from my my words on friday. They were meant as another discovery of myself. Freedom in terms of thoughts..its kinda abstract to myself and I cant really explain it v clearly. But my willingness to share my thoughts..hopefully is not gonna cause misunderstanding ;]] And i'm just wondering..its not gonna be easy to find someone who's gonna give me as much freedom. Im might be just weird to think bout that kind of freedom which i cant really explain it well too.

This dreamland that I have fell into...i'm not snapping out of it yet. It's gonna be quite hard to snap out of it still.





if holding the pinky is deemed as shy, i say its cheeky and sweet.

Labels: my love :), Sweet

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*advice is to let it load first if ur connection speed is not that fast;D

Awesome. STUNNING cool and HOT..
Makes me feel like watching STEP UP 1 again!
AWWWWW...........

speechless moves

1:43 AM

Labels: Amazed, Dance, Media

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Midterm break is officially over now. I'm still working my way through out of time management in the mugging and all other things. Had quite a good term break this sem compared to last sem ;) Good holiday mood on last thurs-sun, dances and met up with 2 of my good friends, terrific ones.


Leap day was spent waking up early in the morning to meet Jerica at the Gym. Since a long long time ive hit the gym due to expensive charges for adults. Sighs. Still love working out in the gym, systematic yet non-structured. Morning gymings are great! Needless to queue excessively long for the machines. And after gyming, we headed for a swim. Love the workout that day for it psychologically makes me feel better! Its not easy to find a friend who could club and work out together. *grins*

Less than 3 hours slacking at home and i'm out again. This time round for a shopping trip with goey! Haven got an opportunity to meet up with you since our Bangkok trip! And i missed you sooo....i got so excited when i met her..uttering non-stop.



Updated myself with news that probably i shouldnt have known. But thankfully im not kept in the dark. I'm jaded w all these news but at the same time i wanna tell myself..there are many many beautiful souls around me. All giving me the care and concern and support i need. Oh well, i hope nth is gonna happen again after i said that line. lolx.


Btw, finally got my make-up accessory fr chanel after months of OUT-OF-STOCK. heard its internationally. *Phew. And yes...its good!! Highly recommended!


To fill our growling stomachs..we headed to Waraku at Cuppage Road. Nice place but the ambience is ruin by the noise. think it would be better during off-peak hours!

Labels: Dine, Friendship, happy, happy food., Retail Therapy

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Each answer a bite in the heart.
And, each bite in the heart is a crave for an answer.




Perharps i shouldnt

Labels: Emo.., inner voices, Sour

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''!!!"

Thank you my precious for believing this girl here. The maturity, understanding and justice was and is important to me.



Justice.

Labels: Emo.., Friendship

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Late nights again.. and i cant sleep ;(... seems to be heavy on tots again. Amongst all the other shit things i've to do.

Why is it that its always during late night when everything is motionless and resting that thoughts run especially far and ..wild?

Goey was right..as we age, we tend to think 'bout things that we don't in the past. Things which seems to be unnecessary yet expedient. Somehow it adds meaning to our life more than ever.

The phrase this sista gave me "have u ever lost someone u love n wanted one more conversation, one more chance to make up for the time u thought they wld be here forever? If so, then u know u can go ur whole life collecting days, n none will outweigh the one u wish u had back" a few weeks ago..i bear it in mind.

People I talked to, I met, I observed crossed my mind.

Yet sometimes and mostly recently the line between friends and acquaintances became clearer than the past. Few can really cross the line of being an acquaintance. As it is, as much as you think you are friends, its discouraging to find that..actually you were just accquaintances. Discouraging because its upsetting that its